Hey , pretty love . I've been missing you so much , so much tills I dont even remembered when I started to fall for you . I've been missing you , missing tills I lied to the whole world & myself . I've been crying so much each and every night , cried tills I've no more tears to cry anymore . And hey darling , you've been enjoying all this while , & I'm still standing right here . Everyone been calling me a fool , for not continuing my life . I've been rejecting people all around , I've been playing others heart . & I seriously dont even know what I'm trying to do next .

Cause baby , I totally miss you so much . & all the things I could do , was wishing you & her happily . You once said before , ' if this time round , wadever fuck you're trying to do makes no sense , gone means gone . ' && I've been thinking this question for so long ...

So long till I dont even realise what i've done wrong , & I realise , I'm not the one whom is at fault , its you baby . Everybody could see how much I've change , how much I've sacrifice for you . And every tears & blood I've caused just for you seems that you doesn't feel it at all . It seems that it's like , a kind of game for you . You've once asked me , what's love ? & I replied , ' It's all a game . (: ' . You said it wasn't , & I didn't believe . While till now , I still believe its a game . I serious envy those girls around me whom is in love , so envy them . They're like , so beautiful . There's people said : ' People whom are in love is always the most beautiful . ' & I totally agreed . They're like , walking also got wind . LOL . & now , I've been knocked out so easily . So easily that I couldn't even imagine I'm so weak . So easily that I'm totally nuts . Sis & co has been telling me that he's totally not worth it . & I didn't even dared to hear you sing about the concert in school that day , & I know , you will do a very good job , & its like wad I've expected . (: . I felt happy for you somehow . I still remembered , lingg said ' he got in to the final .' I was acting a very very happy reactiion . Royston & co. was stunned about my reaction too . I know if I were to hear your singing , proberly I'll be at there crying . But , my dear loveeee. I'll never cry for you , maybe its just saying , who knows deep down inside my heart , its been hurting so much ? I'm seriously tired of smiling in front of them , how I wish I could say out all the stuffs & kept kpkb-ing at them . But I know I wouldn't , cause its not them whom is at fault , neither it was you . Sigh, I really wish someone would be there for me , spider ? His just wad a good brother I have . (: . I'm really tired of some things , & now i'm working to drag my time off . I dont wanna love you , I dont wanna miss you . All I want is you to smileeeeeeee at me , that's all . (: .